Park12 said...
Thanks, MG!
I've been thinking a lot lately about everything from this summer and I've decided that I'm stuck in this cycle because I'm afraid of somehow slipping back to that place. I know it's not likely because it was such a unique circumstance, but I'm afraid if it happened once, it could happen again. Instead of giving myself credit for surviving such a scary time, I just keep thinking about how weak I was. I think a lot of it has to do with the regret I have about the outcome of the situation, but that's just something I have to keep working through in therapy and at home. I am so glad 2015 is here, because 2014 is definitely a year that I'd like to forget!
Thanks for always supporting me from the very beginning, MG. Your words have carried me through more than I could ever explain!
I can see why you would be afraid of slipping back to that place that you were in last summer. That was a truly horrible time in your life. But, like you said, it was such a unique circumstance that the likelihood of THAT happening again is very small. I know you regret how things turned out, but you had no choice. You tried everything!! In time you will be able to forgive yourself. Be patient with yourself as you work through this.
I am so happy to have been able to help. What you were going through touched me so much and I would have reached right through the computer and held your hand through it all if I could have. I'm glad my words were at least helpful.