Bad palps/bad anxiety! Just feeling bad!

Sorry your feeling bad, have a good cry it seems to always make me feel a little better afterwards. I hope you can try to find a way to enjoy the rest of your vacation.

I love going on vacation, haven't been on one in a couple years, but it is always nice to come home. So I understand what your saying. Try to enjoy the date night and not think the worst when it comes to your baby, I'm sure he will have a fantastic time with his grandparents.

Piggybacking on what SC said, try to remember that anxiety is fleeting. Although it may seem like forever, it doesn't last forever. When you start to get anxious, close your eyes for a brief moment and tell yourself you are ok :)

They say there's no place like home, Megan. I imagine you're eating differently and perhaps your body isn't responding well to it. Remember, palpitations equalled reflux for me. Bottom line, it's all good.

John,

It's so true. There's no place like home. I haven't been eating well, so I'm sure that's where the reflux is coming from.

GMoon,

I'm going to try that. The extra Xanax got me back on track and I've felt fine since. I'm going to try to make the best of the rest of the trip and I refuse to call my cardiologist. I'm going to kick panic's butt if it's the last thing I do!!!

I hope you're all well tonight! We just got back from an over priced date night that we thought we had a gift card for and it turns out the card only applied to the spa! FAIL!

I hope you feel better soon! Enjoy that Florida weather :)

M2,

Ugh, I know we're supposed to get snow at home too! Not looking forward to that!

I wonder if depression/anxiety rates are lower in warm weather states, or if that's a bunch of bull?

BM,

Thanks for asking! I was feeling really good all morning, but just had a meltdown. We have to go to dinner with my parents tonight and I kind of don't want to because I'm afraid that seeing my mom is just going to make me upset and wish she were coming home even more. I'm afraid that leaving here is going to make me feel unsafe at home. Being here has been hard, but at the same time, every time I've felt bad I've thought to myself, don't worry, your mom is 10 minutes away. Now when I feel bad at home I have to adjust to her not being there agaim and I'm afraid of having a major setback. It brings me to tears just thinking about how anxious I am about the whole thing. :(

This is just a 3 month thing, thankfully! I was doing pretty good when she first left, but now seeing her is making me think that I won't be able to handle things at home without her. I Don't know why, but I have a really hard time seeing the positive when I get this anxious. What you say is what she says. She's only a flight away and could always come home if I needed her, but that seems so long when she used to be a short ten minute drive.

I guess ultimately I'm just not trusting myself right now. My anxiety is high and my physical symptoms have been pretty bad. Lots of heart palps and I just feel pretty bad and it's scaring me that she won't be there if something goes wrong. Ugh.

Unfortunately no. I know he wishes he was better at it, but he's very level headed and doesn't understand why if I know my symtpoms are related to panic and anxiety, then why can't I get past them. I guess part of me still believes that there's something medically wrong with me. My mom is a lot more like me, so she always calms me down.

Thanks BM. It really does make me feel better to be here and find people like yourself who understand. This bout of anxiety has made me feel like I've gone from 34 to 10. I just really feel like I need my mom. I've never had a set back like this one and I've actually never let her be this aware of how I feel and now I just feel like I'm depending on her so much. Coming here and talking with you guys tends to be my saving grace. Some days it's the only thing that keeps me from driving myself to the hospital and just demanding they check me for everything! :)

Gotta love moms for hooking it up with Xanax. I'm sure you will miss her very much but to echo her, you can go back whenever. How old is your son?