I am so sorry Lacey that your anxiety issues are "coming back".
Please take a deep breath and realize that the anxiety just leads to panic but where does the panic lead? Yes, it makes you feel awful, or like you are dying, but in reality the panic is NOT GOING TO KILL YOU!. I try to head it off by telling myself that it's just my over-sensitized nerves trying to trick me into believing that things will get worse...and that I am not going to let that control me. Most of the time it works but just in case, I have Klonopin to take as needed - I don't take a whole pill, only 1/2, and it doesn't make me feel weird or sleepy but like you, I am not taking daily meds anymore. When you begin to feel the shakes, dizziness or any of the many symptoms of anxiety - STOP and analyze them. Say to yourself, "I am NOT going to let this get to the next stage!" take some deep breaths and just keep doing whatever it is you are doing, whether it is driving or taking care of your son. When you stop and get out of the car and let the anxiety control you - it's like we're giving the "anxiety monster" the go ahead. Panic attacks have never killed anyone - even though it might seem that they could. You need to have time to enjoy your precious gift - your son. Being a mother is a joy - but also taxing on your nerves (I had 4 - LOL). I am not promoting anything here, but I was desperate about
4 months ago and bought a book "Hope and Help for your Nerves" by Dr. Claire Weekes - after about
4 other books, which didn't help, this one did. It makes more sense than anything else I've read or listened to. I also purchased her CD, which I listen to whenever I start getting that "feeling".
This website, and the wonderful moderators, has been a Godsend that I am thankful for daily. There are links at the beginning of the forum that are helpful too, if you haven't already checked them out, do so.
I wish you the best today - YOU WILL BE FINE! I promise. Enjoy that precious baby
