Possible MS

Hi Everybody!

Well, it's been a while since my last post.

I was doing ok, but as of the last 3 weeks, It´s all been downhill for me. I started a new job, and I don't like it. I can't say what's wrong about it, there's probably nothing wrong with this job, it's just not for me. I HAD to take it because I could not be without a job, but I just feel as if I'm going backwards instead of forward.

Anyway, I was feeling ver proud of myself because I had been managing my anxiety beautifully. At my old job I knew everybody, and all of them knew about my anxiety, so I felt comfortable there and was really afraid of a new job where I knew no one. Well, that has been a blessing in disguise. I have had to manage my anxiety on my own and have succeded.

But I have been feeling depressed, which is not something I'm used to, and although I haven't had many panic attacks, my health anxiety has been awful. I have been feeling REALLY sick these past few weeks. It all started with pain in my lower back, which I thought was beacuse of my new chair at work. Then I remembered carrying all my groceries by myself to my 3rd floor walk up apt. Well Know I have stiff neck, blurry visión and extreme dizziness, almost all day long, plus the pain in my lower back, which hasn't subsided.

Of course I started thinking Multiple sclerosis. Which is not crazy since my mom had it. That is not what ultimately killed her, but she had been diagnosed 10 years earlier. I had never worried about that, until now.

I should go get that checked out, I guess. Of course it terrifies me. And even if it weren't MS, what is it???

RA,

Hi and welcome back! :) Sounds like a bit of postive, along with some challenges since we last heard...

Congrats on your new job...I am sorry that you are not liking it much at this time. I hope this changes, or that you can make some plans for seeking an alternative soon. I do like how you found the blessing of increasing your skills at handling your anxiety...way to think positive, even in a less than ideal circumstance!

As far as your symptoms and health anxiety go...

When was your last physical? If it has been a year, then your first step would be to go in and get checked out. Talk to your doctor about your concerns, and you will know where to go from there.:)

For now, know that the symptoms you describe can be from anxiety...and I myself are struggling with the same the last few days...

Check out our Resources for great self-help relaxation coping skills, as well as health anxiety help.

Practicing these daily should find you feeling better.:)

Keep posting with us, and know you have understanding and support here!

S.C.

Thank you Steve, Panda and SC!
I am feeling much better today after noticing something, I have been clenching my teeth non stop, day and night and that should be contributing to my soreness, and stress definitely is contributing with everything else.
I usually underestimate the impact that daily stress and anxiety have on our bodies. And I am so stressed, also, for the first time in my life I have been feeling very depressed, and depression sure hurts. I think the shock of my mother's loss is now wearing off and grieve creeping up, it's been 7 months now.

We definitely suffer a lot, us anxiety sufferers, but at least we discover how resourceful we can be.

I'll leave you with this quote by Albert Camus, I think it is beautiful!

¨In the midst of winter, I found there was, within me, an invincible summer. And that makes me happy. For it says that no matter how hard the world pushes against me, within me, there’s something stronger — something better, pushing right back¨.