Feeling so worn out

I'm just so tired of the all of the physical symptoms. Tired of not knowing why or what's causing the lesion found in my brain and not knowing if that is causing my symptoms or if it's all anxiety or some magnificent combination of both.

I have been feeling more and more agitated lately and also depressed.

Tired of my physical state, my emotional state, the state of my home and my work.

I feel like I am letting my kids down by not being healthy and well.

I'm also feeling like I am at a stand still in therapy. I like the therapist fine, but I don't feel a strong connection. And I frequently leave therapy feeling like, if I had a good friend to talk to that's what it would be like. I don't often feel like things are "solved" or unearthed.

I feel stuck. In many ways. And lonely.

Normally I feel better sharing my troubles and thoughts with my husband, but recently I feel like it isn't as helpful to me. And I often walk away from the conversation feeling that I wasn't really understood.

I just want to be well and I find myself falling between being so upset that I am not and desperate to try almost anything to get there.

I echo SC advice on group therapy, I started it about 2 months ago and I really like it. You could possibly find a friend or two there.