Posted 5/23/2015 5:22 AM (GMT 0)
I refuse to end back up in that cycle I was in 2 years ago, like really I will break this okay and doing good and surviving to end back up in some dark place nooooooooo I will not today has been awful and night 🌃 has been worse I'm sick of anxiety / panic attacks so sick of them wish someone is up to chat. Alone now fighting this only person I once had in my corner no longer care and her actions say it, I want to be better completely over this and the only thing that holds me back from total healing. Is I'm reminded of death, lost my Uncle a week ago a cousin lost her mother and another lost a relative. Was at work the other night 🌃 a manager became I'll probably anxiety she said she couldn't breathe and thought she was literally dying, people are afraid and when you go deeply into it the thought cross all minds daily I hear it and see it. How to conquer this and get over it and just live thats all I want is my true chance at pure happiness, and stop allowing fears /fear because thats, what anxiety and panic is got to stop allowing it to ruin my life and destroying it I want to be healthy mentally and physically and it has got to happen now Iam beyond sick of this coming out of no where and playing games need and want to be well now frustrated 😰 beyond measures and just want to be normal open to all advice.