Food anxiety?

Hi all,

This may be weird and I don't even know if it it's a real form of anxiety but does anyone get anxiety when they are about to eat/are eating?

For the past little while I get super anxious right before I eat a meal and even worse while I'm eating to the point where I don't want to eat anymore. Once I have stopped eating the anxiety ebbs away. It doesn't happen at all meals just usually dinner. If I stop eating though when I'm not done or have hardly touched my food then I'm starving later and it's not good to eat later at night.

So just curious does anyone else experience this or something similar while eating?

Hi,

It is literally just dinner that causes this. I also kind of have health anxiety and I don't know if this makes sense but I think because dinner is the biggest meal of the day and I'm eating fat and probably a little cholesterol that I subconsciously fear that by putting that food into my body that I'm actively clogging my arteries or some silly thing. I mean I eat pretty healthy but I do enjoy the occasional slice of pizza or whatnot. I don't know if that's what it is or not it's hard to tell.

Like when I started having heart palps almost two years ago I dropped 25 lbs very fast because I was so anxious and I wouldn't eat for days because I was afraid that by eating I would cause more damage to my heart or cause a heart attack or something. Until I had all the tests done and they came back good I barely ate and then I started eating again and gained my weight back. I am overweight by like 50 lbs but it is impossible to lose it. When I was healthy I was working hard physical labour jobs and I couldn't she'd a pound. It doesn't matter if I lay around or work 60 hours a week in a lettuce field I stay the same weight lol.

Anyways back to the topic but maybe this food anxiety stems from somewhere in that mess? I just don't want to be a nervous mess every time I eat dinner lol. Maybe I feel guilty for eating when I think I shouldn't be because of my weight? Even though starving myself isn't the answer, been there done that and it obviously does nothing either. Ugh...

Thanks for your advice and support.