Hi Myself, I'm sorry you are having an anxiety attack. Have you ever watched a mindfulness video, I'll post a couple for you. It isn't for everyone, but it does help if you allow it too. I love mindfulness video's and find they work very well for my anxiety.
I'm sorry about
the delay in your response to your job ( I follow your post on the other forum) :). Maybe it's time to call them?
A couple of my favorite video's.
/www.youtube.com/watch?v=HT_ZvD94_kE&list=WL/www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fpiw2hH-dlc