Posted 6/22/2015 2:01 PM (GMT 0)
I have PTSD. It's tough. My son has it too. We went through a major trauma together, and so we have each other to lean on, and that helps.
Our situation is ongoing as well, so we aren't able to put it behind us. It is sort of chronic PTSD.
It started when he was diagnosed at 15 with a chronic, terminal illness - Cystic Fibrosis. He was also dx with a spine disorder - Sherman's Kyphosis, which had to be corrected with an 8 hour surgery, and a year and a half recovery period. I lost a job over it, and we were so very poor that my husband and I had to go without food many times just to feed our kids, and pay for our son's medical needs.
Recently, my medical problems (I need several surgeries) have really activated my PTSD. The other day my son admitted to me that he is having episodes of reliving his surgery, the pain, and uncertainty. I think it's because he's been so worried about me.
It is a daily struggle. There are many times I'm afraid to go to sleep. Every time my son gets a sniffle or cough, I freak out! If anyone is sick, I make them stay away from me and him. It's very frustrating. I'm nervous at church, because people come to church sick. WHY?! Anyway...
I get PTSD, and I'm so sorry you are dealing with it. I really hope you can work through it. If yours is from a trauma that is in the past, maybe you will be able to put it where it belongs, and heal from it.
I wish the best for you, and if you have any specific questions, just e-mail me. It's in my profile. I'm happy to help if I can.