Posted 6/29/2015 1:35 AM (GMT 0)
irish,
It's easier said than done, but worrying isn't going to do a bit of good. Allowing these thoughts to consume you is not necessarily killing, but it's causing you to not live. We are all mortal and we are all going to go sometime, but don't hurry it along.
While it may not be the most sound advice, I wouldn't try to quit smoking right now, but you are going to want to at some point once you have gotten a grip on things.
Much love.