HL,
I am so sorry to hear of the struggles you have been going through currently! :( It is scary and fustrating to have a set back such as this. However, it does happen that a previously tolerated Rx does not perform well for an individual the second time around...no one really knows why, but this occurs occasionally.
As of now, are you are still on the Buspar and Klono? Are you showing ANY improvement that you can seel?
You mention wanting to avoid SSRI's, and after what you experienced this is understandable...but there are other options to discuss with your P-doc. Here are a few alternatives to ask about
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Remeron/Mirtazapine (tetracylic A/D)
Wellbutrin/Bupropion (aminokeytone A/D)
Effexor/Venlafaxine (SNRI)
Vistaril/hydroxyzine (antihistamine used off label for panic)
These are a few things to research, and perhaps try with the okay from your P-doc?
For now, I am going to link some meditation videos for you to try. They require little in the way of particiapation, other than to click on them, close your eyes...and try to relax along with the video.
When you are feeling more up to reading and learning new coping techniques...you can check out the rest of our Resources for fantastic material...but for now, just give these a try:
Three Minute Mindfulness Meditation Video
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cDflnqo0TQs
12 Minute Meditation Focused on Relieving Physical Symptoms
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q2_UfFIszkY
Also, have you been through, or are you currently in therapy? If not, then once you figure out your Rx situation and are feeling stronger, I highly recommend this step...or return to it.:)
Keep posting with us as well. We understand, care and are here for your support anytime!
Scaredy Cat