Not doing well at all

I started therapy and so have had three sessions and 350 dollars later I just don't feel like its helping. Actually I think it may make me feel worse. I don't like being asked questions I don't have the answers to and then when I do try to answer I am asked a question about my answer. I felt guilty talking about my parents particularly my mother. The therapist is nice and all but I don't think its going to work out for me. I have anxiety everyday pretty much all day long now and I know I had a rough childhood but I really think I dealt with it ok and I was doing ok until my health issues started. I no longer eat food at all and now I have zero appetite. I called my dr to try a new medication for my stomach a week ago and never heard back from him. I feel so weak anymore but I guess at 84 pounds I am not the picture of health. I really don't know what to do. No one seems to care I feel like I could drop dead tomorrow from not eating and none of my doctors would even blink an eye. Honestly as much as I would hate to leave my loved ones behind I kind of don't care if something does happen because I am tired of always feeling nervous and scared and crying.

LC,

Please don't give up on the therapy. It is hard in the beginning, but gets better...and simply takes time!

What you describe is not unusual, but something that will improve if you can stick it out...and I am sure you will see progress start to happen.

As far as your doctor goes...shame on him for not getting back to you...

...but don't just shrug and give up!! Call back, and keep calling until you get what you need!

I know you are feeling down and low now, but this is your health, and you have to fight for it!

You need to be eating. Is it a fear of choking that is inhibiting your food intake, or simply loss of appetite?

Either way, have you tried Ensure or Boost shakes? They provide the needed nutrients and calories you need, and are easy to get down.

You can't possibly hope to recover or feel up to the fight of managing your anxiety in your current physical state.

Unless you are really short in stature, your weight is dangerously low...as in, risk for electrolyte inbalance and possible cardio damage low.

I don't mean to alarm you...but want you to know the risk of continuing without eating.

PLEASE make another call to your doctor and don't give up without an appointment. You need help to get back on track with your health.

Will you promise to do this?

...and post back so we know you are okay?

With concern,

S.C.

Keep pressing your doctor to either get you on the right medication...or refer you to a GI specialist...

...and please continue to work on your anxiety management.

It is often when treated together (the physical and the mental health elements) that progress is really made.

Recovery is attainable...keep working for it! Those happy pictures you were looking at can be a part of the near future...not just the past!!

S.C.

Jake'sMom said...
Lawchick, I'm so sorry you are feeling like this. I know therapist can sometimes dig into places we'd rather leave closed. Maybe you think you pretty much had it all dealt with, but maybe the fact that it is bothering you to open up about it proves you have not.

I don't know. I have been putting off therapy for other reasons. I have lots of upcoming surgeries, etc. BUT, I do know I'm not at all excited about going. I know there will be some tough questions, and things I don't want to think/talk about.

You must eat. If you can't put food in, you must put something in. Get some boost shakes, ensure, whatever you can find.

Keep calling your doctor. One call could be lost. Don't give up.

I care, and I know others here care too. If you need immediate help, please call the number below. <3


National Suicide Hotline
1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433)

Thank you for the number but I'm not planning to kill myself I mean I would be lying if I said I haven't thought about it but i decided I didn't want to do that to my fiancé and my family. I really do want to be here with them but I just don't want to be sick anymore and I think at this rate something will naturally happen to me so there is no need to get everyone angry at me by doing anything myself if that makes sense. So I don't have any plans on doing anything like that.

LC,

Do you see a licensed therapist, phychologist...or an actual psychiatrist?

Have you mentioned the depth of your hopeless feelings to your mental health professional?

I think you need some immediate help for your mood, so as to feel enough motivation to pursue your health from an all around stand point.

Can you please look into getting more help in this respect? I am concerned for your state and outlook right now.

Can you reach our with the help of your family?

S.C.

i am shure i will get flamed for this but i strongly feel therapy is ineffective and a waist of time and money. medication is what you need and hopefully find the right dr

super20dan said...
i am shure i will get flamed for this but i strongly feel therapy is ineffective and a waist of time and money. medication is what you need and hopefully find the right dr

Not really. After three therapy sessions I don't feel its helping me and that depresses me even more. I am seriously thinking of telling my therapist that tomorrow is the last time I will be going there.