Posted 9/11/2015 2:20 PM (GMT 0)
Well, some family issues have caused my anxiety to hit me like a bus.
My youngest son had a break up. Full of drama, and threats from the ex to the point the police had to be called to keep her away. Even after we had blocked all of the phone numbers she was calling and texting from. Ugh! He moved back home with the puppy I told him not to get until he knew the relationship was going to work out.
He is very ill with strep throat, a stomach bug, and a respiratory infection. I'm not in any shape to be keeping up with a lab mix puppy. She is adorable, but I can't keep up with her right now.
I'm worried about my husband getting sick. He is the only one working. I surely don't need to be sick during my recovery. I already have a weakened immune system due to other health issues. I already caught the stomach bug. :(
So, last night I had to take a clonazepam. I took a whole one as prescribed, and checked out for the entire evening, and slept all night. I know I needed this break. Today, I'm back to a half dose, because I can't just sleep all day.
I love my child, and hated that he was in a dangerous situation. I'm glad he's home, and finally getting better, but it is also stressful, and my other kids can't come visit due to all of the illness. It's just been a lot to handle.
I am trying to practice my progressive muscle relaxation, and breathing exercises. They helped to some extent, but until I took the meds, I wasn't able to relax enough to keep up with the self help exercises.
Please continue to pray for us. Thank you.
Hopefully things will level out around here soon, and I can wean back off of them. For now, though, they are helping me relax enough to not keep my shoulders up around my ear lobes constantly.