How many prayers, and tears can I shed?

Osrvivr06

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Joined : Sep 2015

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Posted 9/16/2015 5:32 AM (GMT 0)

I have never felt like is before. It's been nearly 8 months since I was diagnosed with severe depression and severe anxiety. I was beyond stressed at work and became physically ill, so I knew that work was really getting to me. I lost my job because of this.

Now a little background I think I've had depression for about 5 years due to the church I was at being hard and harsh. I'm also a cancer survivor of ovarian cancer stage 4 when I was 18 years old. So my life feels like it's always flipped over.

I see a dr and a therapist. And to be honest I lie to my therapist it's only a 15 minuets session, it's like she don't have time for me, so I feel why be honest if I'm going to start crying and then time be up?! Right?!

I had some bad friends and a bad relationships that are completely out of my life, new church feeling ok. But, when in the work will I stop panicking?! How many prayers do I have to pray and how in the world can I still cry?

I was house bound for the first 3 months of this year because of this depression and anxiety, I have been in the suicidal phase, and it's gone but sadly I feel it creeping back in! I take my medicine always and it felt like it was working but not anymore!

I need some advise, and some to through me a life line......tell me it gets better please, I'm trying to have faith but it is extremely hard on some days, I know God doesn't leave us or forsake us but man it seems like I've been left with this!

Hibee

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Joined : Oct 2008

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Posted 9/16/2015 8:32 AM (GMT 0)

Hi O

First of all a big welcome to the forum I am pleased you have found us we are a friendly bunch and can relate to what you are going through.

Sorry to hear you have been having anxiety and depression it is common for the two to run side by side. I am pleased you have been to see to see your doctor but I feel you need to go back and see them regarding your worsening anxiety/depression as you may need a med increase or change?

With regards to your therapist 15min is not long enough a good session should last anywhere between 45-60min so I would raise this with your therapist and if they are unwilling to offer you proper support I would change your therapist which can be a pain but you need to be with someone who can offer you their full support.

In the meantime have a look at our resources thread which is the first post on the main page for some useful links to self help guides and keep posting here so we can help support you.

Suicidal thoughts are difficult to deal with but it is important that you talk to someone about them and here is some info for you:

National Suicide Hotline
1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433)
This is a combined network of the Amerian Association of Suicidology, the National Hopeline Network, CONTACT USA, and many other organizations. Call are automatically routed to the nearest crisis center to the phone from which the call for help is placed.

Helpful Web Sites:
Suicide Hotlines (listed by state)
Suicidal.com (includes Suicide Crisis Center and Depression and Suicide)
SuicidalTeens.com

Hibee

Scaredy Cat

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Joined : Sep 2006

Posts : 28868

Posted 9/16/2015 2:53 PM (GMT 0)

Hello and welcome!

I am so sorry to hear of the challenging time you are currently going through.:( I know that you are hurting and scared, and I feel very much for you. I am glad that you have found us, and hope you find this a caring and supportive place.

I second Hibee's advice regarding your therapist and getting the time that you need. Please look into either extending your session, or looking for another therapist to help you.

Also, when was your last Rx evaluation? Do you see a general doctor for your prescriptions, or a P-doc? (psychiatrist) It sounds like you need to be seen...and possibly have your meds/doses reviewed. Often they can suddenly and inexplicably stop to work as well for you as previously.

The Resources are great as Hibee mentioned...and I will be happy to pull up any links for ease of access for you. Just let me know what areas are most troublesome for you...and what you'd like to see as far as recovery goals...and I'll try and pickk some good self-help matches for you.:)

Keep posting with us if you find it helpful. We are here to listen, and support is key!

Scaredy Cat

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