Hi Kitty:)
I am sorry to hear that anxiety/OCD issues are challenging you so at the moment.:(
You have recieved great advice and ideas above, so I'll just add my encouragement and some specific material from our Resources that I think will be helpful.
I echo Hibee's advice of seeking help with your doctor for medication and/or therapy if you've not done so already...
...and for now, here is a great self help site that you could get started with for relief.
Self Help Printable Work Book for OCD and Intrusive Thoughts
http://www.moodjuice.scot.nhs.uk/obsessioncompulsion.asp
Keep talking with us as well...we understand, care and are here to support you anytime.:)
Scaredy Cat