Appt today and very anxious

I have been having extreme issues with my anxiety, mainly health anxiety for about a month and a half. It was doable for awhile but now it's front and center in my life. The only thing taking the edge off is a couple of glasses of wine in the evening (at least it's the dark red variety). I'm literally tired of the constant tight head, neck and chest muscles, jaw clenching and pains, shortness of breath, and feeling restless and wound up all the time. I've journaled, done breathing, progressive muscle relaxation and taken my benzos almost daily, but it seems my coping skills aren't working. I periodically bury my head on my couch or pillow and cry til I can't anymore because I feel like I'm losing it. I spent most of the weekend with my son and grandson. Though we have fun together, the anxiety and body scanning is always at the back of my mind. I feel at such a loss for sensible words to tell my doctor how I feel without sounding like a bambling idiot. My apt is today at 11:45 Pacific time and I'm just uptight not to mention scared of them wanted to do tests or something and finding something. Just can't get the "what ifs" out of my head which makes me more uptight.

I can really relate to this. I dread doctor's appointments so much! In the end, we have to know that we are being proactive about our health.

Not going or not having tests won't change anything anyway.

Wishing you calming thoughts, and a great appointment that will bring you some peace of mind.

Well done!! Enjoy that feeling of relief!

Focus now on your coping skills.for recovery!!

Hugs and high fives.:)

S.C.

I'm glad she was able to provide some relief for you. I'm so bad at getting my yearly checkups that I probably need to do the same!
Hugs!