Need to ReRoute My Way Of Thinking

Hi HW Family,
I posted a while ago that I recently started Accutane (I am now in my second month) and have had minimal side effects compared to some people-- just the dry lips, dry skin, minor achyness, etc. Last night my back was hurting terribly after a long day of standing so I used my heat pack on my bare back. The heat pack is essentially a plastic covering over some French Clay that you can either microwave, or freeze-- whatever you desire. It's usually unbearably hot for most people, but I actually like the singeing feeling on my back. The direct heat with my sensitive skin from the accutane left a petechiae pattern on my back to which my partner shouted "Oh My God, what's wrong with your back?!" The delivery of that question made it seem as if I had a parasitic twin growing on my skin. Naturally, that led to the worst case scenario and I was crying for a good few hours after getting upset with her for even bringing it up.

I need ways to re route my thinking.

I, sadly have petichiae on my legs. ankles etc. blood does not coagulate properly. (diabetes) et al. a positive affirmation said twice a day is very good. keep strong.

Omg my hubby does this to me almost every time I use different hot packs. I also love when they're scorching hot and they always leave a mark because I'm fair and sensitive. I've got no advice, but I was in your shoes last week, so I feel ya!