Weekly check in.

Morning All

How has your week been? Are you looking forward to Christmas?

I have been really busy so looking forward to chilling over the Xmas period anxiety has been running high due to a benefit review that I have had to do and I have not heard what the outcome is yet.

Hibee

bad fires in our state. the other day was 43c. northerly winds with fires everywhere. internet dropping out, still is. just dropped now. not sure if I stepped on the cord. been up n down, had a brief very depressive period where I felt a little chaotic and dark with my thoughts so I rang up and sought some assistance. I sought of overdid it on the depression forum and became less attentive once or twice and sort of just got stuck in it. at least i recognise it. internet has dropped twice whilst i am typing. it is still crap weather out there, but not enough for this one would think. a little crackle on the line, cord gone again.. i think the fan leg got caught underneath. bugger- i have to keep replacing it as the gov will not put a separate darn plug in!! keep strong.
ps, being tested for addisons/cushings syndrome. endocrinologist has orderd 25 blood tests. seems i am pushing too much cortisol from my hrt. could be pituarity lesion and or just pumping too much cortisol due to a genetic hormonal condition which is extremely rare. i have all the hallmarks of cushings, explains everything. will no more early feb.