My journey with anxiety.

Hello everyone. I'm new here. I just made a post in the thyroid forum because I have some thyroid problems, but I really signed up to post here because anxiety is the albatross around my neck. about a year and half ago, I got a cortisone shot for allergies. I have never had anxiety/panic in my life until that point. I did after. I saw an alternative doctor who found candida antibodies in my blood and we treated them. He put me on thyroid meds and I was getting better. I didn't have any anxiety for awhile and was sleeping well. I could lay down and night and completely relax and wake up feeling refreshed. I enjoyed sitting at home watching tv or reading. I was going to football games and even went fishing a couple times. I was hungry again and I gained a little weight back. I abruptly stopped taking the thyroid medicine (I didn't know better) and a few days later the anxiety came back. I got back on the thyroid meds but I was never able to get back to where I was, and my labs are high in some areas now. So, I've been anxious and panicky for the last couple months. Not sleeping well. Worrying all the time. The doctor wouldn't entertain the idea that the thyroid med caused me issues, and instead said all of my problems were due to parasites. I've had the complete Fry lab work up, stool test, ANA, etc., and it all came back negative. I changed doctors and my new doc said my thyroid was out of balance and did a saliva test and also diagnosed 'Stage 2 Adrenal Fatigue". She said that could explain my issues/symptoms. She also suggested that I see a therapist, which I did. In the last month, I've finally admitted to being sexually abused as a child. After that, things seem to have gotten worse. The therapist did FSM therapy on me to help alleviate some of the symptoms of adrenal fatigue and PTSD. I used to think all my problems were physical, but I don't know if I believe that anymore. I just want to get better and enjoy my life again. My new doc gave me a script of xanax to help get me through the holidays since I won't be having any therapy sessions. I'm scared to take it because I don't want to get addicted to it. I'm scared of everything. I'm scared I'm going to get so bad I'll have to go to a mental hospital. I'm scared I'm going to get so bad I'll become suicidal. I'm scared I'll never be able to get out of bed one day. I'm scared I have Lyme disease. I'm scared I'm eaten up with parasites (new doc says I'm not at all). I'm scared of everything and I have no zest for life. Three months ago I was walking my dog and singing and pretty happy. Now I feel like a hopeless mess and I can't understand how I turned into this.

I look forward to talking with everyone and becoming a member of the community here.

Thanks Hibee. I am planning on looking at the resources. I took a friend to the ER years ago who tried to stop xanax cold turkey and it scared me. That was five or six years ago and he's now on valium and had a terrible time getting off xanax. I don't want to trade one problem for another.

Thanks. My biggest issue is trying to not let health anxiety get me. I'm scared I have Lyme disease or something. I read too much negative info and convince myself I have Lyme when I felt almost perfectly normal before I messed up my thyroid medicine. It's terrible.