Posted 12/27/2015 1:31 PM (GMT 0)
I have IBS and developed anxiety from it. I get diarrhea from anxiety, and I constantly have "loo-map" in my head just in case I need to run to the toilet. All the "technique to cope with GAD" doesn't work for me because they usually talk about the "heart attack" feeling or dizziness. My symptom is different.
I was on Lexapro for 4 years, and then I became better, so my doc helped me to weaned off Lexapro. I was not on meds for 6 months. I was working for 2 months, but I left because my anxiety was overwhelming:
1. When I receive negative feedback, I think about it over and over again for weeks.
2. I worry about making mistakes at work and it affect my sleep and relationship with my family.
3. One time I got too stress at work, that I was shaking and took me 30 mins to calm down.
I left the job, and I felt even more useless when I was unemployed. Everyone around me seem to be doing well and I am not advancing. I was afraid of going out because I fear that everyone would make fun of me. So after a month of being unemployed, my previous employer asked if I would like to give it another shot, and I joined the company again. My employer told me that I better not quit this time like I did, so I felt obligated. I am unable to go lunch because of my anxiety attack, one time I almost embarassed myself in public during lunch so now I avoid this completely. People around me noticed that my anxiety is worse now, my family & husband wants me to stop working but I really don't know how to quit again.
My family & husband are worried for my health and they fear that something might happen to me. Going to work is difficult for me, in fact going anywhere is difficult for me.. my husband said that when I wasn't working, my anxiety improves. Should I continue working or how?