cant get out of my own head/fearful thoughts

I've been having a particularly rough bout of anxiety lately and, having health anxiety - to, it seems that I can't stop thinking about what's going on in my head. The only way I get any relief from constantly obsessing about my anxiety is by totally immersing myself in keeping busy. I keep thinking that this will never stop and it will drive me crazy. I have a lot of reasons to be having anxiety I suppose, having lost my best friend of 50 years pass away last year and now taking care of my other closest friend of 50 years who is suffering from the beginnings of Alzheimers disease. I suppose it makes me recognize the fact that I am getting old and fearful of having the same things happened to me, or something physical but it seems the mental things bother me the most. I also take care of a woman who has severe dementia but she is very sweet and I know depends on me a lot to visit with her so I don't want to give that up. I tried getting a part time job at a local thrift store but the physical work that was required was too tiring believe it or not, a lot of lifting etc which bothered my back so I had to give up that job too. I know my anxiety is also exacerbated by depression but I'm not sure which comes first the depression or the anxiety or both. I'm going to the therapist this Sunday and might start on an antidepressant but for right now I just hate being consumed with these anxious thoughts. They are like waves of dread and fear that flow over me on and off during the day. I've taken xanax over the years and it's always helped but I might have to increase my dosage if the doctor agrees. & I noticed that it doesn't work as well in the morning as it does in the evening. I'm just glad I have this site to turn to as I have over the years because it's really therapeutic for me and makes me realize that other people understand what I'm talking about. I hope all of you can find ways to work with your own anxiety and depression and think about you folks every day, knowing you are my best support system

Andwes,

I am sorry you are going through this challenging time currently.:( I know how you feel...and it is mentally and physically exhausting to worry about one's health round the clock...

My mom is showing signs of Alzheimer's/dementia, and it is very difficult to witness.:( It does increase my anxiety...both in the sorrow of seeing her diminished memory/cognitive function...as well as kicking up worries about my own future...and bringing this fear close to home, so to speak. So I get how your role as a caregiver can have it's triggers!

I am glad to hear you are going in to talk with your therapist soon. I hope this consultation brings you much progress and the answers you need to best work your anxiety management. Please update us after your appointment, okay?

As always, take advantage of your Resources here...

...and keep talking with us! You are a valued member and part of what makes this community of support so great.:)

Hugs, peace and progress,

S.C.