Back and overwhelmed

It's been awhile since I've posted although I have been reading. Things were going well for awhile but in the last month or so, anxiety has returned with a vengeance and just can't relax or get rid of the overwhelmed feeling.

My son who will be 24 on Sunday has moved back in temporarily and we're getting along fine and are very close. He and his girlfriend split a few months ago but remain good friends. My grandson is with us every other weekend and my son goes after work to see him every other day after work.

I also lost a dear family friend very suddenly the second week of February.

I've also been working two very busy jobs. My full time regular job which I've been at for almost 20 years and my part time retail job which I work late at a couple of nights during the week and a weekend shift (been doing it almost 2 years).

In a nutshell, I feel burned out and overwhelmed. A friend of mine that is a massage therapist gave me a hug last week and said "Oh My God!!" She said my back and neck muscles feel like concrete. My son says the same thing. I'm just tired my anxiety is full blown because others are noticing it and I feel edgy and /or jittery a lot. I was drinking a couple of large glasses of red wine in the evening and stopped doing a little over a week ago because of how I felt the next day plus I was gaining weight from it.

My stomach has also been feeling tense and knotted up frequently and I've had a lot of big time reflux to the point of burning, tingling and icky taste in my mouth and throat. (I have GERD and gastritis already).

Given the late nights and feeling burned out with fatigue and the fact that my regular job has become more demanding, I made the decision over the weekend to leave the part time to regroup, get more rest and get my life back. I'm giving my notice tonight.

I have a history of anxiety and take Effexor 150 and Prilosec 40 mg daily.

Thanks for listening to me vent.

I think removing a pressure point in the second job will help. Sometimes we don't realize how crazy busy and generally stressed we are until one of those pressure points are taken away. Just today I was at work and removing some of my manager file diaries for people who now report to a different manager. It was so liberating and I felt a deep and strong calmness come over me! Hopefully you will feel the same when you are not working that second job. A little relief can go a long way towards easing anxiety!

Thanks everyone. I followed through and gave my two week notice last night to the store. They are very bummed but also understand too that I have to do what's best for me. I've made a lot of friends and that will remain but it feels good to know that the exhaustion is soon to end.
Anxious Texan...I love your name! I'm a fellow anxiety sufferer and also born in Texas! Blu...you nailed it about retail. Everyone in my family has worked retail at some point and all agree that it's very hard and very draining. I welcome hard work but when you come to the point that you're doing too much and it's affecting you physically and your gut tells you it's time to stop, you have to listen.