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Posted 3/11/2016 12:35 AM (GMT 0)
ah, where do I begin? Hello.. 22 year old female living anxiety free almost 5 years. Yeaaaah! Oh.. Wait what's that feeling in my chest? (I had been stressing about money and being suspicious of my bf cheating even though I'm positive he was not) For 3 weeks prior to losing my car I had an unsettling feeling in my chest that I chose to just ignore.. Come last Wednesday early March 1st or second.. Coming back from supporting a friend who ended up in hospital for severe depression, I get pulled over. I had been driving under suspended license for the last 10 months... Well being a previous agoraphobic my car was what I relied on even though I got it way after my anxiety has left. Anyway, I broke down as soon as my boyfriend came to get me, I felt my life just fell to pieces I need 10,000 dollars before April 26th before my court date and I have became extremely scared all the time. I woke up the following Friday last week with my heart aching and racing I started bawling my eyes out, I went outside everything was strange I started to feel weird again almost like I'm drugged. I started to build up fear over the next week, but telling myself no it's just anxiety it will not kill me etc accept the feelings blah blah.. Anyways, so 2 days ago I dragged myself to work which is also very stressful, and I had such strong anxiety not panic attack but just anxiety brewing it was killing me, I didn't want to live like this anymore. I left and went to camh, a mental support emergency walk in. We talked, etc they gave me klonoplin and Zoloft.. I have been taking but don't really want to. I don't have the strength to beat this right now and I need to make money. I have an option to go back to my moms and sell my house but I can't keep running every time i get an episode of attacks. Anyways my anxiety is almost 24/7 it definitely was Friday sat sun Monday tues yesterday was a little relief going to my moms, today I started running still anxious to go to work. Have to commute 2hours to psychiatrist tomorrow by bus. Thankfully my mom is coming. Idk what to do... I did it without meds last time but idk if these meds will even work I'm super anxious to be outside and having panic attacks non stop... Even taking klonoplin It's not as terrible but still very much there and real... I don't even know if I will ever get better. I stated journal and today running 15 min morning 15 min night. This morning was so scary I even said what's the point of living feeling this hell all the time, I can't do this again.. Anyways I'm a very lost dog1216
Posted 3/11/2016 12:37 AM (GMT 0)
What are your guys take on medication? Will I need it forever now that it's come back?? Will it even work? I know it takes time if anything I'm 2% a little better than 5 days ago (I also havent been working) but I don't want to rely or start to become tolerant to the Zoloft and than it won't work and my anxiety will come back. Also should I still push to go to work or should I take a week-2 off?
Posted 3/11/2016 2:12 AM (GMT 0)
Dogs are some of the best people i know!
Sorry about your PAD coming back on you but rest assured you beat it before and will again, just keep remembering you are already a winner and will yet kick this nasty condition to the curb of life.
You are already well aware of how to fight this but take a look at the resources here, you are one of us and as such hang on i have yet to see one person who did not eventually win!

You are young and healthy, remember noone has ever died from Panic/Anxiety, Peace

Larry ***
Posted 3/11/2016 2:21 AM (GMT 0)

lgm1942 said...
Dogs are some of the best people i know!
Sorry about your PAD coming back on you but rest assured you beat it before and will again, just keep remembering you are already a winner and will yet kick this nasty condition to the curb of life.
You are already well aware of how to fight this but take a look at the resources here, you are one of us and as such hang on i have yet to see one person who did not eventually win!

You are young and healthy, remember noone has ever died from Panic/Anxiety, Peace

Larry ***


Oh Larry! How nice to see that message. Thank you very much. Feels great hope you are doing well. And you know what as draining as anxiety is, it's a beautiful thing it makes
Us stronger and it's a privilege to experience a feeling that most don't. Just imagine it as an extreme feeling of feeling alive!
Posted 3/11/2016 3:11 AM (GMT 0)
I came home from VN pretty messed up but i doctored myself with booze, i didnt really think anything was wrong until i was 48 had a grand mal panic attack and went to ER, it took me over 20 years to get better and one day I found "Healing Well", things started to fall in place, i took my meds as prescribed and became active in a group therapy called "Recovery Inc". non profit org.
When i really started to wake up and realize that i could unlearn my bad thinking i started to recover
the only med i used was xanax and i didnt play around with it, i did taper off and now i use benadryl at bed time for the last three years. This is a condition not a disease and you will one day sack it up in the trash and throw it away, Peace
Larry ***
Posted 3/11/2016 4:38 AM (GMT 0)
Hi D and welcome!

I am sorry that you are currently dealing with so many stressors...and the returning anxiety issues. We know how that feels, so you're certainly not alone....and we'll be here to support whenever you need us.:)

It is great to hear that you are going to be seeing your P-doc tomorrow. I hope that you get the guidance that you need to make your best possible management plan!

The money issues, getting your license back...ect...they will get resolved in time. Every day take small but consistent steps towards taking care of these issues, and don't get overwhelmed by looking at all of them collectively.

Do have a look at our Resources at the top of the main forum page as Larry suggested. It is filled with great self help that is very helpful.

Know we are here to listen anytime, so keep posting!

S.C.
Posted 3/11/2016 8:39 AM (GMT 0)
Hi

Welcome to the forum but sorry to hear of your situation and return of anxiety.

The good news is lots can be done to help with anxiety and i'm sure your pdoc will have some good options for you and as SC mentioned take a look at our resources and keep us posted on your progress we are here for you.

Hibee
Posted 3/11/2016 11:44 PM (GMT 0)

lgm1942 said...
I came home from VN pretty messed up but i doctored myself with booze, i didnt really think anything was wrong until i was 48 had a grand mal panic attack and went to ER, it took me over 20 years to get better and one day I found "Healing Well", things started to fall in place, i took my meds as prescribed and became active in a group therapy called "Recovery Inc". non profit org.
When i really started to wake up and realize that i could unlearn my bad thinking i started to recover
the only med i used was xanax and i didnt play around with it, i did taper off and now i use benadryl at bed time for the last three years. This is a condition not a disease and you will one day sack it up in the trash and throw it away, Peace
Larry ***


Wow how very inspirational! Congratulations on tapering off and getting through. I too medicated depression with booze but when stopped drinking body crashed... I was on terrible diet, stress adding up
And not active... Time to turn life around I am glad you did too!
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