So Depressed

So lately Ive been dealing with issues and posted about it and again I want to thank all of you for responses and it means the world to me.

So what Ive been trying to do is try to remember about the last time I was feeling this way and try to relate it to this time and I do remember the depression with the anxiety and not sure if its worse this time or last what ever the case it sucks and I hate it but Im scared cause I don't want this to be something thats part of my life and I want to feel normal again. Im sitting at my computed with my eyebrows wrinkled upwards and it sucks. I hate feeling this way and Its almost like waves of horrible terrible feelings that I really can't explain and I wish I could I really do but I just can't and its so confusing and I hate it thats what I do know…I know that I hate feeling this way. Im sure the anxiety sparks this depressed feeling the feeling of me wanting to die and feel like it would be the only way to cure it would be dying.

Its also so odd cause I look up depression and I really don't have the symptoms or I guess the common symptoms of depression. I don't over sleep and I haven lost interest in things I enjoy. I want to be around people and to be honest if Im not around people Im feeling depressed and hate it. My co workers think Im out going and funny. I like to joke around and I seem confident…if they all really knew they would be surprised….very much so I might add.

I always bring this up in my posts but I was in a relationship 2 plus years ago and she and I did things together and now she's gone and with a new man and Im alone board and feeling like I was when I was in my early 20s. so I feel like I took a few steps backwards. I just dunno Im all over the place I really am.

Well God please help me and help us all.

Franki,

Not everyone reacts the same way with anxiety/depression. ..

I did not fit the mold in either one myself.

However, from what you describe, it does sound like you are dealing with both issues.

The good news is that you can do a lot to help yourself feel better.:) In addition to using self help techniques...

...getting out and being among friends...and seeking to make new connections, and explore new interests will help to balance your moods.

checking out classes at your local community center, or looking for volunteer opportunities. ..even join a social group like 'Events and 'Adventures could be something you might consider.

We are here for you anytime...so keep posting. We'll do our best to keep you encouraged. :)

S.C.