So, I've been feeling more anxious lately. I had a panic attack while driving a couple weeks ago. I took a Xanax and was fine getting home. But, now I have been timid to drive since than.
It's been just over two years since this bout of anxiety started. After getting on buspar and a Xanax regiment (for about
two months), I started coming out of the worst of it. Unfortunately, the anxiety has totally never left. Some days it might be minimal, but some days it's bad. I am soooooo tired of the up and down.
I was prescribed lexapro a couple times and have always been too scared to take it. That option is looking more and more appealing to me lately. I miss my love of driving (which has never been the same since my bout started). I miss really looking forward to trips and outings. I mean, I can enjoy things, but there is still that bit of anxiousness that comes with it. I miss really throwing myself into something, without fear that anxiety or panic will stop me from finishing it. I absolutely thrive on meeting and talking to people, and this anxiety has made it hard to engage in conversation a lot of times. And I even miss working out (NEVER thought I would say that), as my anxiety is high whenever I do.
I'm thinking that my saritonin is probably super low due to the constant low grade anxiety. I might not be able to fix that without medication. Maybe I should go back on a Xanax regiment, as I know that works for me. Ugh.
Such big decisions.
Post Edited (Momtogigiandquinn) : 8/8/2016 6:06:16 PM (GMT-6)