Bad day

Ugh, I'm feeling so frustrated and upset today. Just very anxious all day, and then my daughter (4 years old) had a giant melt down this afternoon and I handled it so poorly. I apologized and we hugged, but it just left a very bad feeling on the day.

I'm just so tired on feeling anxious and depressed. It's so frustrating to know that just 6 weeks ago I was happy, living life, enjoying things. That feels impossibly far away right now. I feel like I'm trying so hard and it's not getting better. I'm reading self-help books/websites. I'm taking my medication. I'm going to bed at a mostly-reasonable hour. I am exercising 4 days per week. I have a psychiatrist appointment for 10/25. I have my next therapy appointment this week. I'm trying to get out there and make myself do things I used to enjoy. All this effort, for nothing. It's just so exhausting!!!! I just want to live a good life and not be terrified and sad all day.

I know so many of you out there have suffered much longer than I, and I am so sorry. I don't really know what I hope to gain from this post other than just venting.

May tomorrow be a better day for us all.

^^^ 100% right. With big hugs from me. It is exhausting, but she's right. It will pay off. Vent away, you deserve to get it out. Maybe others have dealt with it longer, but so what. That doesn't mean your less deserving of support or that you should spend 2 seconds feeling guilty about it.
I hope and pray you find relief soon.

Hi

Sorry to hear you are having a tough time at the moment but it sounds like you are taking all the right steps so stick with the plan and hopefully you will see some improvement soon.

I have found exercise very helpful even more so than medication so keep up with your exercise plan.

Keep us posted we are here for you.

Hibee

Thank you for the kind thoughts everyone. It is hard to be patient, since it just feels so awful to feel this way, but I am trying to remember that it's about baby steps. There have been no meltdowns from anyone today, so I guess it's a better day than yesterday!! :)

yes baby steps -thats how you recover from this mess -well said. please feel free to come here and vent to us anytime you feel you need to. -its what this place is for