Posted 11/13/2016 8:39 AM (GMT 0)
I went to bed last night worried about my bp. I woke up earlier and had tachy but got it under control but this time it won't stop yet and it is making the anxiety loop worse. I need to take my bp but I know if I do right now I will freak.
Since coming off the beta blocker my body is quicker to panic and it is frustrating to me. I am not sure but I did have a cardio work up in march and he said everything looked good. I also went to the er a few weeks back with tachy and they said the ekg and labs made heart look good but bp was very much elevated.
I'm just typing here because I am alone and afraid and not sure what else to do. I want my heart to know it can calm down on it's own and my anxiety to know it doesn't need to protect me all the time. It is getting a little better. I am nervous about taking mt bp but I'll get to that in a bit.
I've been a victim of this for 19 years. It robbed me of the education I wanted to much. I was in school for just a week when the first panic attack came on. It happened at work after an injury. I loved my job and gave that up too. I was going to be a nurse. I had planned it for 10 years and had been working an extra job to pay for the prereq's and I was so happy. I had 2 kids at home also. Life was full and busy and promising. The irony that I used to be a caregiver ( I was a CNA and also worked some rehab) and that ended in me being a patient for all these years yet unable to care for myself.
Ok back to the bp issue at hand. I took some time to relax and took it. I took it twice in each arm to be sure.
It is 145/105. and pulse is down to 86 :) Yes it is high but it is far better then my mind had anticipated.
I am going to try to sleep. I am going to post this if I should get back up and have to read it back to myself to see I can be ok.
I hope for sleep and I hope everyone here is sleeping instead of up on the internet <3