Need a light, some relief, a drop of happiness

Hi, been rough this month, been thinking about a lot things, the psychiatrist (the same one) finally attended my and gave me advice, but I had the mixed feeling of wether I should take it or seek another person, there is supposed to be a Cuban Psychiatrist in my town, I don't know if Cuba has good if not the best psychiatrists, but of that one of the things, part of my is vowing for a cure, but the other part (*Please, if easily triggered don't read after this*) just wants to die, like I've been through a lot and it's starting to take it's toll on me, I don't like being with people or family, and the breathing thing keeps bothering me if it's automatic but my thoughts still gather around it and I need a way to cut that bad root because from there all of my fears come from, and also happiness seems already so numb.

Hi Siqnik

Bless you ... Sorry your feeling so low at this time.... SC has given you fantastic encouragement and i just want to echo this.

Things may seem bad at the present because your low but the fact you posted on here says YES i do want to get well...... and you will.

Not everyone wants to be around people ... thats not a failing it can be self preservation for some..... But hopefully when your mood lifts this may change.

When my anxiety was high , i wanted to be alone and lick my wounds on my own... which was hard as i am very close to my family .... but they respected my need for quiet and peace and it turned around with the help of coping skills.

I am sending you love, support and encouragement..... There is light at the end of your tunnel .... Hang in there you can do it xx

Please keep us updated on your progress and be kind to yourself xx