Hi TL and welcome!
I am sorry to hear of the loss of your friends...how tragic, and of course a trigger for anxiety and worry regarding your own mortality.
I am also sorry to hear of your gastro issues. Treating this from both a medical and stress reduction approach is definitely a good plan.
What if anything have you tried thus far for anxiety management? Most people talk to their doctors about
medication and/or therapy with good results.
Self help is another approach...and one you can get started on right away by visiting our Resources at the top of the main forum page here for great material.
Understanding and support are also key, so post with us here anytime for encouragement.
Glad to have you join us! Talk soon.
Scaredy Cat