Panic Mode Flare

Hi all
I have been suffering in a panic mode flare and I have not posted because every time I tried to sign in to lend support or try to get support I'm getting a message from my computer protection software that this is not a secure site.

I've gotten to the point where I don't even care.

I need my friends here!

I have so many stresses in my life right now. I'm everything to everybody and I'm just one woman.
So many people are dumping on me or are angry at me because I can't solve the problems in their lives or feel like I'm the cause of the problems in their lives.

I know that they are wrong to feel like that and wrong to treat me the way they do but yet I try to be Jesus Christ to them all and of course there is only one Jesus Christ and it's not me.

So the problem at hand for me is this.

I can't sleep well because in quiet moments the what ifs monopolize my mind. I am looking haggard because of this and it is upsetting to me. I am completely on edge which is causing me to forget things, do things wrong and it's damaging my self esteem. Xannax and mindful meditation are not helping.

I am having terrible bouts of diarrhea which plagues me when I am overwhelmed. I don't particularly care about this for the most part as I have dealt with this side affect all my life and my coping skill is to know where every bathroom is everywhere I go and have let go of the embarrassment of having to go in a public restroom with others present.

However! I am in a situation where I am in a bad way with this affliction and need to make a 3 hr. road trip with a VP of my company to do a presentation to a large group of people which I do not feel confident about because this is new to me and way out of my comfort zone.

I am so scared it's going to hit me and I'm either going to be trying to hold back my diarrhea because I'm ashamed to ask for a bathroom stop, there won't be a bathroom stop available, I crap my pants.
I fail at the presentation. Then it starts all over on the drive back.
I'm not close to this person- we have very little to do with each other.

I emailed my GP and asked if there is something I can take or do to try and thwart this. I was told they are not sure that my problem is stress related and to come in to discuss with possible blood tests and/or stool tests.

Whatever. I have an appointment tomorrow.
I had asked if there is some method to take something for a few days in advance to the trip to eliminate any diarrhea.

Has anyone been in this situation and know a method?

Thanking you in advance.

Here is the response from our Admin Peter regarding that notification:


Hi all, this is a change in how browsers treat logins, some of the newer browsers are displaying warnings on our login if it isn't using SSL security. I'm working on getting an SSL certificate installed so this warning doesn't appear any longer. However, given that this site does not store anything really critical, like financial information, it isn't a huge deal. But rest assured I'm working on it.

Another mod mentioned that they only got it when using FireFox...and it stopped when they switched to Chrome. I use Internet Explorer...and I have never seen it.

S.C.

Sorry with what you going through,we all have been there.i have,still am.it sucks im here for you,we are all family and friends here

Cheers!

I am glad you went in. Did your doctor tell you to watch your fat intake? W/O a gallbladder...fats/oils are not broken down...and pass through undigested , causing 'D'.

I am wondering if the powder she gave you binds with fats and neutralizes them/carries them out of the body without causing the problems...makes sense if it also helps manage cholesterol...

...but you will still want to monitor your fat intake and other trigger foods.

S.C.

I just read on drugs.com that one of the possible side effects of Xanax is diarrhea.

I just mention that in case it plays a part.

checkin in with ya my weary friend. ps prew, yep i do likewise with toxic people. block em.