Posted 6/21/2017 3:23 AM (GMT 0)
Hi all,
I am having a lot of trouble dealing with PTSD at work. I keep feeling flash backs from previous times, and even though I know it is not real, it causes me an immense amount of anxiety and panic at times. I can feel it negatively affecting my work, as I don't want to interact with people in case they are abusive, even though everyone at my company is so kind and compassionate. My brother had me trapped in a hotel room for years as my parents both died from Alzheimer's, and convinced me that everyone in my family hated me and that I had singlehandedly ruined his life and killed my parents. I was able to finish college and am now in consulting in DC, and on the outside look like I have it all together, but am internally falling apart as I try to detangle myself from my abusive brother that calls me constantly to heckle me. I'm trying to extricate my dad from my brother's abuse as well. I also have multiple chronic medical conditions that flare at different times, and just feel like there is so much to balance.
Work is getting harder and harder to handle. Have any of you gone on short term disability leave? I hate to do it, but I think it is something I might have to do if my anxiety remains this bad. I dread going to work every day, and come home exhausted from anxiety. I feel so weak that I can't push through this, but I have pushed through so long and am just so tired. Do you all have any thoughts?
Warmly,
Katie