rocd

Hi everyone, i have started a relatively fresh relationship that has honestly been the happiest and most comfortable one i have experienced. But from one day everything was good but the next day i had a dream about another girl, After that i started having thoughts that i was using her and that i stopped loving her. I dont believe love dies in a day and that this is OCD. The constant thought that i dont love her and urges to leave have caused me insomnia and self guilt. The thought of not loving her feels so real and i am starting to worry that it is not rOCD and that i just fear hurting her. i have also started noticing her flaws and cannot see her the same way as before, i cant picture a future or her in my mind. my compulsions seem to be re-assuring, checking by talking to her alot, over analysing my behavior in the relationship to prove i actually love/d her, looking away from girls. constant I really care about her and she is the most amazing being but for some reason i cannot feel emotion and i feel uncomfortable talking to her and being with her. I have started noticing other girls and my mind automatically thinks they are attractive. i started comparing and having thoughts of my past relationships. i am in the constant state of over thinking and analyzing and pain. this is the relationship i need and want to save. What can i do ?
Also i have suffered from HOCD and other pure-O experiences.

Hi

Welcome to the forum.

OCD is tough to deal with but the good news is lots can be done to help so I would suggest your first port of call should be with your doctor and ask them about a referral to see a CBT therapist as CBT is proven to be the most effective way of treating OCD.

Medications can also help I currently take Prozac and have found that really helped with my OCD so chat with your doctor about your options.

Do have a look at our resources as we have some good links and keep us posted.

Hibee