Hello and welcome!
We are glad to have you join us...though sorry it is due to your current fears and panic challenges. I, and many of us hear have been through what you describe...so know that you are not alone.
It is great to hear that you have started working some self help techniques through meditation. Keep up this beneficial practice, and see the link to our Resources below, for more great material, including links and book recommendatios specifically for health anxiety and panic.
www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=9&m=104206If you find you need more help in managing the anxiety, then talking to your doctors about
your options would be the next step. Medication and /or therapy are the usual and effective choices.
Keep talking with us as well if you find it helpful. We care, understandand support is key!
Talk soon,
Scaredy Cat