Hello WTOM and welcome!
We are glad to have you join us, though sorry to hear of your current challenges. A loss such as you have been through is certainly an understandable trigger to the struggles you are facing. I am very sorry to hear of your loss, but so happy that you are reaching out and seeking help.
I think your decision to start your Rx is a good one. Like you said, you won't find the right treatment for yourself until you get started trying...and it sounds like you are ready.
The initial start up of any med can have its challenges, but it is a means to an end...which is finding a med that performs well for you, and helps you in your management and recovery. That said, many people do not experience side/start up effects...so knowing that they
could happen, but not
anticipating anything negative is key in having the best experience.
Are you currently doing any therapy work or self help to round out your management plan? If not, this is something I always encourage members to explore.
You can get started with the latter anytime by checking out our
Resources at the top of the main forum page here. There is great material there, and practicing the suggested exercises can make a big difference in how you feel
Keep posting with us as well if you find it helpful. We understand, care and support is key!
Talk soon,
Scaredy Cat