Hi Hopeful,
I am really sorry that this week has been so rough! I understand how it feels to be all over the place emotionally.
However, try your best to trust your doctor regarding you fears of bipolar issues. If he/she says you do not meet the criteria...which is way beyond fluctuations in mood/anxiety levels...then you have no need to fear.
Have you made it past the 12 week mark on any of your attempts with an A/D? Increased anxiety is really common during the start up period...and many people stop taking their Rx before the therapeutic levels are reached due to that s/e.
Starting and stopping multiple meds can make for some real ups and downs...so this could account for how you are feeling atm.
Perhaps staying off of any medication for a cleansing period...and focusing on Therapy and Self Help techniques for a bit could be a good plan...
...and if you feel in the future that you need to re-visit the idea of an Rx to help you feel your best...then you and your doctor can come up with a new regimen.
Wishing you the best in your next steps...keep us updated so we can keep you encouraged!
S.C.