Hi everyone, I’m 21 years old and I am seriously at rock bottom. Whenever I go to the doctor, I have such a bad panic attack that I think I’m going to die and I want to leave. My husband comes with me to the doctor now and doesn’t let me leave because I totally would if he wasn’t there.
Back story: In January of this year, I was exercising while extremely dehydrated (unknowingly) and my heart rate shot up to 160bpm and stayed there for 2 hours and I had to be hospitalized. Up until that point, I had zero health issues. I ran cross country in high school and I did Crossfit 6 days a week. This was just a one time thing. Unfortunately, when I was at the hospital, a doctor came in and told me I had a heart attack. I was stunned that I could have had a heart attack at only 21. I went home with SEVERE panic and anxiety, to the point where I begged my primary doctor for meds. When I finally saw a cardiologist, he told me the ****** doctor at the hospital misdiagnosed me and all that had happened was I was extremely dehydrated, and that’s what caused my BP to drop and my heart not be able to slow down. After that I was like wow finally I can live my life again. NOPE.
Because of this, I now have an extreme panic disorder. Whenever I have to go to the doctor, I know they’re gonna put a BP cuff on me and take my pulse, so I go straight into panic mode. It’s gotten so bad that I literally thought I was going to die on the table, just as I had thought when I was going through my dehydration in January. My anxiety completely mimics what happened to me. I swear when I go to the doctor, my pulse will get up to like 120 and I feel like I can’t breathe or think. I don’t want to stand up because I think I’m gonna faint. I literally just want to book it out of there. Of course after the ordeal is over and I finally get to go home, I’m fine for the rest of the day. I’ve been dealing with this more often now because I am pregnant and have to go much more often now. I have an appointment tomorrow morning and I’m dreading going. I’ve tried warning my doctor “hey sorry I have panic attacks when I see doctors and my pulse is taken so that’s why my pulse and BP are going to be high. I’m okay trust me.” But then after telling them that, I just panic even more because now I know they’ll be expecting an abnormal result and all the pressure is on me now. And my face gets red cus I’m embarrassed. It’s so bad. I hope some of you can give me advice
Post Edited (Danielle1035) : 4/25/2018 5:28:40 PM (GMT-6)