Having a horrific anxiety meltdown

I have been having to deal with a lot of health issues lately and since I have an overwhelming health anxiety, it's on overload right now. Even though I have always been a hypochondriac, I never went to the doctor because of my overwhelming fear but now my family is putting a lot of pressure on me, as they've noticed I've been complaining about it more. I have always had problems with my stomach but it tends to go away after a period of time after taking Praillis sec and watching my diet. It still does go away for days at a time but always comes back again if I eat the wrong thing. Years ago I was diagnosed with IBS but I'm really beginning to I think it's now my gallbladder or colon and I'm scared to death that it's cancer of some kind. I have made it to A couple of Kelimini airy doc appointments where I was diagnosed with type BP and put on medication but later in the month I am scheduled to have a full physical and blood work as well as eventually a colonoscopy and and DOS Skippy and I am scared to death. I wake up in the middle of the night with severe anxiety and always think the worst, even though over the course of my life I have been very healthy… Just always thought I was dying of something. Everyone tells me to face my fears and the anxiety will probably go away but it is such a hard thing for me to do after so many years of being this way. Can anyone give me some words of support I have to admit that I'm pretty embarrassed about being so fearful when so many people have horrific things to deal with but this is all that all new to me and scary as hell. It seems my mind is constantly thinking the worst and I need some suggestions for coping.

Hi Andwes,

Same boat...so I get it, completely.

I would suggest two things...

One, going through the Health Anxiety link (the long one with the modules) from our Resources...

...and two, asking for a short term script of a benzodiazepine...to help even get you through the door at your appointment.

If you can't get a doctor to prescribe one...since you've not been in for a while...find a P-doc to see first...as a first step, if you will. A psychiatrist, being a doctor...and yet not one who examines you physically...could be a good stepping stone in your process.❤

Best wishes with this...and know that we are cheering you on!!

I really can't add anymore advice but I did want to say good luck. Oh, and your fears and anxieties are just as important as anyone's else. Feel free to come here and "talk" when you need to.