Struggling with crippling anxiety

Hey guys, well... where do I start? Let’s just say this last month was a longgggggg year!!!!! I’ve had so much stress, anxiety, tension, depression, guilt, Shame, and sadness built up for a while now.... today it just exploded and I’ve had the worst panic attack that I’ve had in five years!!!!!!! I mean full blown heart beating out of my chest, sweating, clammy hands and feet, nauseated panic attack. I called the ambulance and they convinced me I wasn’t having a heart attack, or any heart related issues period. I refused a trip to the hospital because I’m afraid of coming in contact with the corona virus !!!!! The panic attack lasted 4 hours or so.. until I drifted off to sleep for about an hour or so. Now I cannot sleep. I’m tired. I feel sleepy. But when Is down I can’t wait go into deep sleep. I just toss and turn. I’m 27 years old I’ve been having anxiety/ depression for 12 years. The worst crippling anxiety ever. It fit better 3 years ago after I had my daughter. Nuts it’s back with a vengeance!!!! I also take 20 mg of lexapro twice a day, 15 mg of buspar tyree times a day, and 1 mg of klonopin twice a day. My chest And my back hurt so bad. Can’t sleep. Please help.

Hi Anxiety_. (Not to be confused with high anxiety) Not sure I know a lot about this stuff or anything else for that matter but it saddens me to hear how you're suffering. I feel like you're laying a whole bunch of stuff on yourself that you probably don't deserve. Guilt? Shame? For having human reactions to some horrific crap going on around us? Be kind to yourself and continue to share some good news down the road.
Respectfully,
Mike