Update

As some of you know here, I’ve had a huge health phobia concerning my heart and blood pressure. I was convinced SOMETHING WAS WRONG with my heart.
In September I had a ekg, a echocardiogram (ultrasound of my heart), and a 24 hour holter monitor on my heart. I waited three crippling weeks for my results. On October 13th I came in to speak to the dr over them. EVERYTHING WAS PERFECTLY FINE. no heart condition, arrhythmia, or any type of malfunction of the heart at All!!! I was so pleased and veryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy relieved!!! I quit taking my blood pressure constantly and having intrusive thoughts about my heart. Although I stick check my blood pressure at least once a day.
But today I’ve been feeling off.
I’m anxious but I can’t find the root. The intrusive thoughts are coming back. I feel like I’m disassociating from my body and mind. I don’t like the feeling. I know nothing is wrong with my heart. I’m not going to die. It’s more of a fear of losing control/ My mind thing. I just want to fall asleep, but I’m also afraid I won’t wake up. I feel as if my anxiety manifested from one fear to another. Can anyone relate? Any responses would be GREATLY APPRECIATED!!

Mindfulness yes, meditation, slow deep breaths, in through nose, down to belly, deep breath, hold
a few seconds, purse lips and release. Repeat a few times. Other tips, cold shower on head, really helps in
a shock mode with them thoughts.

Kidneys regulate blood pressure, keep hydrated. You know and get it, however constant checking will
just briefly spike your blood pressure and heat rate. No die happening.
The HT not dead, suspect kidneys at times, had double by pass, which had a crack at the chiller twice.
Reflect you are good, medically good. Bar crippling health anxiety. Trust your dr, stay the F off dr google,
and use your tool box, whatever works. When the attacks happens, move into mgt mode,
music, ice in hands, use mantra, burn incense, i do, use water cold water on head, distract, distract.

Keep strong, HT