Grandfather just passed. Having a lot of different emotions

Hello everyone,

So my grandfather passed away today at 92 years old. He died from natural causes.

He is supposed to be cremated shortly with the memorial service taking place after the holidays next year due to me being so far away.

I am having so many different emotions right now. Me and him were really close. I was able to see him at his care home two years ago before COVID hit but I never saw him again. His memory was failing at that point. He recognized me but would often get me confused with there people.

At the moment, I feel sad but I haven't really cried. I regret not calling him as much as I should have.

I am just thinking about the memories we had together.

Don't worry that you have not cried. Sometimes grief by weeping does not happen until something else brings it on. And the "regret" part - don't do that to yourself, be kinder. You and he know what you had. In the realm that he is now, he is "with" you, and he understands. It's obvious in your message that you and he shared a deep bond. That bond still continues.
I am sorry for your loss.

DEEPEST OF CONDOLENCES, HT