Lost after passing of parent

Hi,

I lost my father a few months back after a bought of cancer. The end was very difficult as I live far from my family. Ever since his death I have felt like a different person and have not gotten the help i probably needed

There was a situation in work where someone made a bad decision and following they called a co-working stating he recorded a conversation of me and is turning one thing i said in a meeting to their potential benefit that could negatively impact my standing and job.

I am and have been riddled with anxiety as my
mental health following his passing had left me a zombie and I honestly did not take the time I needed. Everything all emotions have been non stop the last 4 days with thoughts racing, the what if’s to a point I am now questioning everything about myself and making stories of what if that I know are not true.

Any advice is greatly appreciated

Another things is, I didn't have any supervisor in my neighborhood to complain to about peopole talking about me.

But you do.

Consider going to a supervisor, perhaps a female, about this problem.