Help... I'm feeling worthless

My depression has relapsed lately, and the doctor tried putting me on an additional antidepressant that made me so sick... I had to stop it, so we've upped my dose of the one I'm on, but no relief yet. I have missed 2=1/2 weeks of work, and will soon be in trouble there too. I'm losing my insurance (everyone at my company is, they decided it was too expensive for them to carry insurance anymore). I've been getting more and more depressed and my anxiety is out of control. I'm afraid of everything, and feel like I'm slipping back to where I was before, wanting to hide under the covers. It's all I can do to get my granddaughter to school and do dishes. I feel like I'm letting my family down, financially and in all other ways. I don't see my therapist until Friday. I don't want to see my primary doc, as she is just going to want to add more and more meds and I can barely function now. I wish I had never started with these antidepressants... I can't take more, the side effects make me feel so bad. Sorry I haven't been helping here much either.. just so down, I don't feel like I can be much help to others.

I love all of you! (hugs)

Bear

Bear,
You could NEVER be worthless! You've been such an encouragement to me and others! try to take it one day at a time and look into social services to help you get assistance. I'm on disability and it's nothing to ever be ashamed of! Keep us informed and we're all here for you!
HUGS!
janet

*huggggs* ooh bear it'll be okay.

It's good that you'll be seeing you're therapist on Friday.

No you are NOT worthless, don't ever think that!!!

My employer doesn't offer medical insurance and I don't have any so now the bills are piling up but I'm trying to avoid feeling depressed even though there is nothing I can do.

Try looking around for health insurance or see if your state has some program you can go through.

I'm trying to get Minnesotacare in my state. It's a state program and there's no deductible. *thank goodness as I can't afford the high deductibles I've been quoted*

Twiggygal~

Bear,
There are programs available thru the pharmaceutical companies that can help you get your meds for free or reduced cost. Don't be afraid to inquire about that! I'll try to do some research and send you the info!
Hang in there!
love, janet

Hugs hugs and more hugs Bear. I'm sorry your going through a hard time right know. I went through a releapse this summer,
my anxiety was through the ruff and I was getting depressed. Hang in there sweetheart it will get better I promise.

Georgia

Hi bear, i am sorry that you are feeling the way that you are... Never for one minute think that you are anything less then a wonderful person... I have read many of your postings and i believe that you are an inspiration to us all... Remember we are all family and we all care very much about everyone in this circle of friends... Hoping your days will be brighter and sunnier then ever very soon... Take care you are in my prayers...

Thank you all for your kindness. Love you all!

(((Hugs))),

Bear

yeah bear, we love you so, we will kick ya rear for saying that, you could never be worthless, we are here for you, as you are always here for us, dont you dare feel bad :( im sorry, depression is running rampant around here lately too, I tired of it, but keep your head up, we have to keep looking up. Yay Janet, i sure hope that will help you bear, free meds! I saw a commercial on a deal like that, maybe same one, but there is help out there, my medical bills are so high right now, they gonna say......pfffft, forget you. But, even with insurance, i owe a bundle for the past few months im sure. But i dont wanna stress over it, they cant eat me right? wel they cant eat you either. we love you so and you are a huge help and make us all smile, we need you bear, feel better quick (((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))
shell