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Posted 10/21/2006 2:53 PM (GMT 0)
Does anyone ever feel like their memories are not their own? I can't even look at a picture of myself because it feels like I don't recognize the person. I avoid mirrors because looking at myself freaks me out beyond belief. I have put up a depersonalization post recently, but this is the pits. I have thought about it so much too that my brain feels blown out. I can't remember what it feels like to feel normal. sad
Posted 10/21/2006 3:05 PM (GMT 0)
You are definatly not alone! I have strange feelings all the time that just freak me out! I dont really have a problem with memories, but I think that I do get the derealization alot, at least I think I do, sometimes I just feel wierd and strange, the only way I can describe it is sometimes I hear people talk but I feel like im not there or something, its really hard to explain, when I feel that way I always freak out thinking Im getting ready to pass out or something, but I do know that it is all part of this anxiety thing. It really is a scary feeling though, I hope you feel better!!!


angela
Posted 10/22/2006 2:48 AM (GMT 0)
Thanks. I am really in a rough way. I need to stop feeling this way and feel like myself again. I really feel like a ghost. I am not anyone. It feels like I died and my memories of who I was are gone, my feeling of who I am is gone, the mirror scares me more than anything because I don't recognize the person. The pain is unbearable. I used to have anxiety alone, but the existential questions and fears grinded through my head too much and broke something and now I feel like I can never go back. sad
Posted 10/22/2006 10:30 AM (GMT 0)
Hi there I think perhaps it may be a good idea to talk to your doc about this,, you say and feel you are no longer you that needs to be dealt with by a professional IMO
we are here for you for support and understanding for sure
BUT as I said I think it is time for intervention by Profeesional
Glad to have you here with us
Sorry for what you are going thru
know you are not alone okay and that we are here for you
Lyn
Posted 10/22/2006 5:45 PM (GMT 0)
Thanks Lyn. I know I am not crazy. But I think the depersonalization aspects of anxiety jsut came too far to the front and I cannot cope. I have an appointment with a specialist next thursday. I hope it goes well because I am at the end fo my rope. Like I said. It doesn't even feel like I am the one typing this right now.
Posted 10/26/2006 4:44 PM (GMT 0)
I am new here and have been suffering from panic disorder for 15 years. I have to reach out to you ( memories are not my own). about 8 years ago i went through this terribly. It ran my life. I became so obssessed with it i lost a year of my life . I pulled my daughter out of preschool and did nothing but obssess about how i was going crazy. Seeing shrinks didn't help. I plunged myself into research and learned that it was of course.. Derealization/ depersonalization. I will tell you that the only thing that made it go away was to stop thinking about it. Everytime you think about it , do something that requires thinking. Until you stop thinking about it, it will not go away. I know what you are going through and it's horrible. I have felt it attempt to come back since but i refuse to let it. It was too hard.

Again , i know exactly what you are talking about . All of the sudden you are remembering things you haven't thought of in years and it doesn't even seem like they are your memories. Your pictures don't seem like you, my kids didn't even feel like mine. I know. I will be praying for you. Pelase disctract yourself. Sorry for rambling.

I toggled the case of your text. Please, in the futrure do not type in all caps it makes it hard to read and is considered yelling.

Post Edited By Moderator (normalsnofun) : 10/26/2006 10:56:36 AM (GMT-6)

Posted 10/26/2006 10:12 PM (GMT 0)
God bless you.
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