Angela I truly believe that you need to seek profeesional help with many of your issues that you are dealing with
A/P wont kill you but you can make self very ill constantly thinking of it IMO
Let got of so many of these worries and just try having a wee bit of fun Laugh like there is no tomorrow no worries ................. about
anyhting
Post something on happy thread you must have something you are happy about
laugh LOUD and it will catch on you will feel better
Endorphins will be released into your body making you feel good
Just try it it can it hurt you................ can it
Take care and be well
LIVE LOVE AND LAUGH
Lyn