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Posted 2/16/2007 6:47 AM (GMT 0)
I haven't been to the board for awhile since my anxiety calmed down and it's all back. I'm terrified and don't want to go through this again. I've been feeling a bit depressed lately due to unemployment and stress over money. Well this last week it all came flooding back. I started feeling spacey and out of it like I was in a dream. That scared me and tured into panic. Then my fear of going crazy which becomes an obsession all came flooding back. My boyfriend and I had dinner last night and all those awful feelings I had just months ago were there again. I had to leave the table and use the restroom because I was afriad I was going to snap right there and go crazy. I'm back to researching everything for evidence that it's just anxiety and my ocd coming back. But again I'm terrified i'm going to go crazy. I went and did a areobics class tonight thinking that would make me feel better and I found myself wanting to jet for the door run home and hide under the covers because of the overwhelming fear I was feeling because I thought I might of heard something. I'm constantly checking for noises and my surrounding for clues that I may be going insane. And wonder if at times I may be hearing things. Which makes my heart skip a beat and I want to flee where even I am. I started having major anxiety in my early twenties (i'm in my thirties now) and have experiened panic attacks, generalized anxiety and ocd. I've been through this before I know I can get through it once again but the overwhelming fear is terrifying. And the fear of going crazy is also terrifying. I've been to see a physictrist and was told it was just anxiety and can get all the ressurance in the world that i'm not losing my mind but I can't stop believing that i'm not. Sorry for venting I guess I just needed to with all this anxiety flooding back.

Georgia
Posted 2/16/2007 7:12 AM (GMT 0)
Hi Georgia. Yeah, I know those feelings and am dealing with them too. I can be just fine for a bit then it will just hit me. Just keep taking it day by day, at this point I don't know what else to do. Hope you get to feeling better soon, and vent away it can help.
Posted 2/16/2007 8:05 AM (GMT 0)

  Hi Georgiak and wecome back to HW

  I really don't feel that you are going crazy but more that your anxiety is just getting the better of you right now and I'm glad to see that you are getting help for it. I sometimes feel the same way having anxiety and diabetes as I got a broken blood vesal in my in my upper calf and it looks like one big bruse with spider vains all around it first thing I though was oh God there going to have to cut my leg off!!!!!!!!! But at this point I feel that you are just being hypersensitive to how you are feeling with your anxiety and ocd just try to remember to breath and do your relaxation therapy and you will get though this so Cowgirl up.

  Cowboy up

Posted 2/16/2007 12:47 PM (GMT 0)

Georgia,

I understand your feelings of going insane, or losing it completely, I've had that too and sometimes it does creep back and I start to wonder again.  I've had panic disorder for 17 years, sometimes it's been out of control and other times it's been gone for long periods of time, it always seems to be a very back and forth kind of thing.  Just know that in all those years that I've been going through this, and all the times I was paralysed with fear that I'd go insane, I never did.  I was told that people who are going insane don't know that they are and don't care that they are...you are aware of your surroundings and what you are feeling, and even go looking for clues that you're losing it and you most definitely care by having such strong feelings about it, so I just don't believe that you have anything to worry about with this.  I know that is easier said than done!!!  People with panic disorder don't go crazy, although it is a common fear.  Take a couple of deep breaths and use your cbt to get this setback under control...hang in there, you will be just fine!!!!

Posted 2/16/2007 1:04 PM (GMT 0)
Hello Georgiak

 

Welcome back to HW I wish it was under other cercomstances. I know you will pull this you have proven you have beat it before it just seems harder this time. Were all here for you and you know the excersises so hang in there.

Posted 2/16/2007 4:51 PM (GMT 0)

I totally understand the way you are feeling just now..but the good news is that you already have the skills to work through this because you have beaten it before..yay! Start breathing deeply when those 'ick' feeling set in, distract your thinking patterns..going to the restroom was a good idea - you managed to pull yourself together and that was great - well done!

You won't go back to square one because you have already been there...this is just like a little reminder to be kind to yourself :-) Have you ever seen the book 'Living with IT' by Bev Aisbett it's a fantastic book and has helped me greatly over the years - I can recommend it 100%

Take good care.

Maree

Posted 2/16/2007 7:45 PM (GMT 0)
Thanks so much everyone. This board has helped me so much in the mist of my anxiety. Today i'm feeling a bit better just tired. I also noticed that coffee plays a major role in bringing up my anxiety. I've been drinking alot of coffee the last month (when I know better) and it makes me go into panic. I'll get through this once again and once again come out a little stronger. It's just an awful feeling when your in the middle of it all. Thanks again for all your support it helps so much.

hugs,
Georgia
Posted 2/16/2007 9:14 PM (GMT 0)
Have you ever considered you have Candida (Yeast Overgrowth in the bod). They claim the almost 80% of the population does. Do a search on Candida and you will find lots of info on it (Including lots and lots of mental issues with it)

Good Luck

Posted 2/17/2007 1:07 AM (GMT 0)
I cannot believe how exactly alike our situation is!!!!!!!!!

I'm not working at the moment, and like you, am worrying over money, etc.  i also have ocd, which i constantly obsess that i have some kind of disease, or even worse, that i'm losing my mind or something, which is the worst thing that can ever happen.  i over obsess to the point where i feel like i'm crazy for obsessing.  i also hear noises, and ask people if they heard the same noise.  it's getting ridiculous, and i just stress and stress.  my anxiety eased up too for a while, then it all hit me again.

i hope you feel better, and i hope i do too.  this is a horrible feeling!

but my doctor said, if you fear you're going crazy you're not!!  if you're crazy, you don't know it!

 

Posted 2/17/2007 2:52 AM (GMT 0)
Isnt it amazing (and horrible!) that no matter how often we have gone thru panic attacks and how much knowledge we have gained about A/P, that the fear can still take control at times. Its so darn frustrating! I'm sitting here with a sore chest and back from all the shoveling the last 2 days, but my mind still tries to convince me that it could be my heart. Sometimes I wish I could reach to give myself a good ole kick in the but!

Oh well, so this too shall pass (for all of us). Lets all hope it's quickly!

Take care all,
Karen
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