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Posted 2/17/2007 10:01 PM (GMT 0)
As you know I had a really scary Monday with lots of traumatic things happen, well I've been sicker all week but accept it now as the reaction to Monday.

I was going so well yesterday and was walking home with my mum from the shops. I could feel some anxiety as money is really tight at the moment but I happened to look down and saw a glass bottle with the top broken so it was all jaggered.

My OCD brain automatically popped an awful thought in my head of using that bottle. Now it won't let me forget that I had that thought.

In no way do I want to act on these thoughts and obviously my brain knows this is the big stress to put on me as I react so strongly to these thoughts.

Any suggestions on wiping these thoughts out? I've been working all week on deep breathing and letting go of the past but this ones the big one. I don't want this thought to keep playing in my mind as I know I'll just get more and more anxiety the longer it sits there.

Rationally I know it's an OCD thought but because I'm still sick there's that little bit of mind that can't see the rationality of it.
Posted 2/17/2007 10:22 PM (GMT 0)
When I first became sick with all this depression and anxiety, I had a similar problem... my therapist had me throw the item out, not because I could be hurt by it, but as a symbolic gesture. Maybe you could take a bottle in the house and throw it in the trash bin, telling yourself that you are throwing out the thoughts. I think it helped me get over the fear of those thoughts. *Hugs*

Bear
Posted 2/17/2007 10:34 PM (GMT 0)
Thanks Bear.
Posted 2/17/2007 11:46 PM (GMT 0)
Hi angel, You just made a good point in your post about not wanting to act on these thoughts. That is a positive thing and it shows that you have some control over what you are thinking. Your mind may wander and you may suffer these negative thoughts and feelings but try to keep in mind that overall, you do have a choice and it sounds like you have a lot of strength inside you to make the right choice and fight against the negativity and not give into the OCD. When we are still poorly and are recovering, we have two sides to thinking but it is good that you can see the rational side aswell as the irrational. Try to focus on the postive like I said, and think about how well you are doing and that you can fight and overcome this feeling. Take care hun
Posted 2/18/2007 12:36 AM (GMT 0)

I also get these unwanted thoughts, self help books on recovery from OCD usually mention them and give advice on how to cope

'brainlock' is good but hard to find

Posted 2/18/2007 3:01 AM (GMT 0)
Thankyou both for your answers.

Today is also scary because it's the first weekend day since I've left hospital that I've been home alone with the kids.

I had been going to my mums or elsewhere but find it hard because they don't understand what it's like and I feel like I'm a burden to them.

I've tried to charter the day out in blocks, so I've got active work to do and in between small gaps to sit and read the paper and like now, have lunch and internet time.
Posted 2/18/2007 4:14 AM (GMT 0)

 I feel that Victoria had a good point on this and it dose show that you do still have control over what is right and wrong for we all fight with the irrational thought's but knowing that you still have control over them is great news and you should be proud of yourself for it, as it is one step in the right direction of over coming your fears of OCD and like I say sometimes you just have to put the fears aside and Cowgirl up and you will make it just fine.

  Cowboy up

Posted 2/18/2007 4:25 AM (GMT 0)
I've had those OCD thoughts myself. The harm thoughts slowly went away once I told myself it was just my OCD. Those thoughts can be very distressing hang in there and just remind yourself it's the OCD.

hugs,
Georgia
Posted 2/18/2007 10:21 AM (GMT 0)
I agree with that georgia. When I get physical symptoms of anxiety and feel panicky - i tell myself that what I am feeling is just anxiety and that I will be fine. Its a good way to train your mind to thinking.
Posted 2/18/2007 10:29 AM (GMT 0)
Aussie
All have given great advice I do as well agree that I tell self it is my Anxiety and it cannot hurt me
I just ride the waves til it is over occasionally have to medicate but becoming less frequent ........
Keep the Faith you are gonna be okay and keeping self busy is the best way an occupied mind is far better than one left to wander to wherever it wants ya know
My opinion only
Lyn
Posted 2/18/2007 11:06 AM (GMT 0)
Once again thanks everyone. It's nice to know I'm not alone with this rotten illness. Though I wish none of us had to go through it.
Posted 2/18/2007 11:27 AM (GMT 0)
You are not alone hun and remember we are always here for you x
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