Hi everyone hope you are all well :)
I have just got a couple of questions to ask as I am a bit confused?!
My councillor has told me I have anxiety which ha caused depression but I don't get it!!
It all started last December I was fairly happy one day and the next I just ort of snapped, ive never been happy since. Me & my b/f went through a bad w/e the weekend I snapped due to me being adament he was cheating, i asked him constantly and was convinced I was right, no-one would tell me other wise!! It was pretty ludacris to think this as he showed no signs of it and is always with me except when at work! Anyway that weekend I would wake up in the middle of the night with a rapid heart beat, and I just felt numb, towards him and everything in the world. I didn't eat I lost a stone in weight i even had to stay off work for a month and I had many other symptoms which the doc later diagnosed as depression so I decided to visit my gp who told me I had depression and referred e to a councillor. I visited 9 times in the next two months as I just couldn't take it anymore I was constantly crying and even tried to take my on life just because living seemed pointless, i had no interest in anything or anyone! After having to change doc I finally go anti-deressants but i dont feel theyve worked all that well. Anyway ever since everytime I think of my f I get this funny feeling in my chest, sometimes i can recognise it as short of breath and others its jst an unrecognisablr dull feeling. Sometimes its not there and it can be fine but others its really bad and I find it ha to be around him which is ruining my life! I loe him early deep down even though I can't feel it at the moment, I still feel really rubbish :(. I hate having this weird feeling abut him as I am trying to get on with my life and I loved him so much well felt the intense feeling of it the day before i 'snapped'. This feeling seems to appear when I think of the future and the other day we found my pet dog is really ill the same feling crept up..Sorry if this doesn't make much sense but I don't feel my councillor is helping very much and I can't stand feeling like this from the minute I get up until I go to sleep, I feel emotionally and physically exhausted, is this anxiety?? and if i is how do I stop it?? I just want to get back to normal and love everyone and everything again...espesh my bf as he ha supported me through all of this, the tears the ups the downs the moods it all!!
Thanks everyone x