A big, fat "Thank You"

very glad to hear it! i took an ativan the other day (only .5mg) and i swear it made me feel really out of it. i wonder if it takes some getting used to, or if my dose was initially too much for me. i never considered taking it more than as-needed, but a lot of people seem to have great results taking a little every day.

I won't become a stranger unless the therapists tell me I need to stop visiting so that I can put distance between myself and anxiety. I kind of expect her to say that. Until then I'll stick around.

When I'm in my better moods and not so self-centered, there's nothing more gratifying that helping people. I don't know whether I've ever actually helped anybody or not, but at times I feel like I have, and it's helped me feel more like a complete person.

I expect a full recovery. I guess it's possible it won't happen. I may have some relapses. The fact that I still have bloating makes me think I still have some sort of minor thing going on with my innards. But you know what? I'm not worried about that right now. I'm just trying to balance being realistic and optimistic.

Today I'm going over finances, moving some money from investment accounts to my checking account. It's sobering to see the damage that's been done. But I'm thankful that I'm not ruined, and if I can get straightened out I'll be back where I was in no time. The future holds promise once again. I've made arrangements with my employer to return to work on Monday. That gives me today to get the money straightened out, and tomorrow to kick back and enjoy feeling good. This weekend I'll be on the road. My grandmother has had some health trouble and there's been some other minor crises within the rest of the family...I'm overdue to visit with all of them.