anxious about posting..

Hi well i thought i would introduce myself here in anxiety/panic.

I have posted in depression and had some really helpful posts, but thought i would post here aswell.

Anyway enough gabbling on.

I suffer with depression and also anxiety and panic attacks. Alot of my anxiety is about talking about my feelings.
I really dont like to do it. I also get really anxious about posting on here aswell.

I know i probably sound really pathetic but it s me.

Here i go again, im trying to justify myself, well explain myself to you.

Sorry not doing well with this, i will leave it here and try again another time.

Sorry again. xx

Angel,
We totally understand that our fears are not generally "rational". Please don't feel bad about your post! We love to hear from our kindred spirits here! We know what it is to have a panic attack, to be anxious, and yes, to be depressed. Many on here are dealing with other illnesses as well as P/A.
As for myself, I deal with GAD (generalized anxiety disorder) with some panic attacks. I am on paxil, buspar, and can take xanax if I need to. What meds do you take? Do you have a pdoc? Is he/she nice? understanding?
One thing about HW forum, you never have to meet a person face-to-face (unless you both mutually wanted to of course!) I find that I can talk to the kind folks on here about anything I need to and they're overall very non-judgemental.
I hope you will find some solace and comfort here as I have! WELCOME, WELCOME, WELCOME! )
BIG HUGS!!!!!
janet

Hi and thanks for your replies.

You are such a caring bunch of people.

I am on cymbalta 60mg at the moment for my depression and that is it. My anxiety and panics are increasing so i think i might need something for that.

I do have a pdoc but i dont see her often as i have a social worker, she is lovely and i see her every 2 weeks. I started therapy a little while ago (CBT) and have a male therapist, he is nice and i see him every week.

I am having problems with that as i have to start expressing my feelings to someone else and that is so hard for me. I sit in the room with him and i dont talk alot and cant even give him any eye contact. My stomach feels funny and i feel like i am going to be sick, my body just feels all funny and it is horrible. But my therapist knows all this and we are trying to work on that.

I am finding every day living really hard due to depression anxiety and panic attacks.

I also have my son (12yrs) to cope with, he has aspergers syndrome and adhd. He gets physically violent towards me and the verbal abuse is terrible.

His understanding of situations is poor and he copes with it with violence.
My 10 yr old daughter has a lot to cope with due to the situation with my son, she gets it aswell.


I feel its too much to cope with at times and i always panic that i am doing a bad job. i am always in tears and struggle to cope with the thoughts that go round in my head. (failure and uselessness)

i just want this all to go away now.

Thanks for listening.

xx

Angel,
You are in a difficult position for sure, but remember that you are only human and so take things one minute at a time! It is wonderful that yu are in therapy and on meds. If the panic continues to worsen, they should certainly give you meds to help.
Glad you're here! Keep posting!
HUGS!
janet

cymbalta and al other antidepressants sometimes help a lot with anxiety and panic attacks too

if on it for more than 6 weeks and at the theraputic dose, and not much help I would ask doc about switching to another antidepressant as quite often several need to be tried before finding 1 that works for you

generic prozac would be good to try, its usually cheaper

when you get a panic attack, disolve a valium type tablet under the tongue, dont tense up or fight back but do accept and breathe deep and slow and wait for it to pass, then get on with your day

if refused any valium, your docs dont trust you, IMO and I would go elsewhere