Posted 6/15/2007 3:03 PM (GMT 0)
I've always been a paranoid person, even when I was a child, but now my paranoia has taken a turn for the worst. I can't leave the house some days because I'm too afraid I'll be attacked or kidnapped, I won't be in large groups of people for the same reason as before, and I missed some school days because I just wasn't emotionally and mentally stable enough to be a proper member of society. Now I'm going to be starting college here in August and when I went to the orientation the parents were supposed to be in one room and the students in another. Well, I couldn't go to the other room without my father being with me. I just panicked at the thought of it. So he followed me like a bodyguard and I kept fearing that the person leading us to the room was really an evil person that was luring us all into a trap where we would then be shipped off into the slave trade. Odd, I know, and perhaps unlikely, but it was such a pressing fear that I couldn't get my mind off it.
--Now my therapist is starting to believe I may actually have schizotypal personality disorder and some of the symptoms do apply to me but I really don't think I'm that bad off. At least I hope I'm not...